BLESSINGS

The beginning of this year has really brought forth many blessings. Not only this year but all the years that passed by. Indeed, God's blessings has not stopped pouring upon my family and I. Because of obedience and submission to Him that my family is covered with His joy and blessings.

It isn't something I can keep to myself either and therefore I want to share it with everyone. God has blessed me through and through and even though I suffer from protein leakage, I know that God's covering and healing power is upon me. Having faith is also one key to God's blessing. 

What is having faith after seeing?

Faith means believing ahead even when there is no proof. 

Easier said than done but then with God, everything is possible. 

When Great Big Daddy God is here, who else can be against us? Truly heartfelt THANKS to Him for everything :)

My criteria.

All I ask from a guy is that
1) He loves God
2) Doesn't smoke
3) Have a mission heart, willing to go for mission.
4) Loves me
5) Loves my family
6) Taller than me
7) Has a healthy body
8) Can read and write in Mandarin

Nothing else. That's it.

Disappointment deep within

I was very disappointed the minute I found out he carved his hand.
I pleaded and try my best to stop him but he still did it. What more, he asked a colleague to do it for him.
That colleague of mine regretted as she didn't want to do it, what more in front of her kids.

I was more of disappointed and angry I think.. But today, God showed me His Word while I was doing my TAWG. He said, never be angry or hate the person but just let him be as God will take care of it. I was totally grateful for that word that I know came from God.

Nevertheless, it was kind of awkward for me to face him. Weird huh!?? How can two people who have just been friends be in this state. Well, I think this won't be the first. I'm always there to help and once it is done or not for me to be there, I go. But I do hope that God will help him through. My friend, you don't know what you have done  to the people beside you who care for you.

"Sometimes it's good to stop and look at the good scenery around you"

Decision Made.

I've decided to stay friends with him because
1) He is immature
2) He engraved his ex-gf's name on his hand
3) I think he has started to think I am a nuisance by talking and talking.

Anyway, I still thought it would be better if we stay as friends as that is what I think he needs right now. I am grateful to God for giving me a chance to know him. My decision is to be there as a friend whenever he needs my help, I will help him. But if there is anything more than just friends in the future, let it be God's will not mine.
I definitely want to help him draw closer to God. It is something he hasn't experienced God's greatness. I pray and hope he will one day experience it.

Emotional Attachment vs. Wishful Thinking

Have you ever thought which of the above is more dangerous? Or is it equally dangerous?

Just a thought I had a while ago. I haven't really figure out the answer yet. But I think it can be equally dangerous. When I talk about this topic, it is related to liking someone or love to the worst extent. Probably one can get mixed up between liking and loving someone, a common mistake.

Yet, I think emotional attachment and wishful thinking plays a huge part that affects your feelings about that someone. And I think my answer is that having emotional attachment leads to wishful thinking which is equally  dangerous because if you can't control your emotional attachment, what makes you think you can control the wishful thinking part of your mind.

Well, I think it is very clear that once you are nearing the emotional attachment stage, you have to be careful. But of course, it is easier said than done. Don't worry. Just know that there is someone that is going through the same struggle with you. So just keep striving through.

Childish MUCH?!

I think I actually have become more CHILDISH!
I want to go back to KL so that I can think maturely. THIS IS NOT THE LIFE I WANT!
God, I need your help. I want to grow somemore. What happened to all my mature thinking? Where has it gone too???

GAH!!!!! I don't like this now! I hope there are more interesting stories that I can update in my blog!

Updates again!

It's been nearly two months since I've updated my blog.
Life has been ups and downs for me.
First Update: I had an awesome holiday in Sungkai Perak at Felda Residence Hot Springs. Yes, I do recommend people to go there. It relaxing, quiet. The price is reasonable.
Go look up yourself at their website-http://www.feldaresidencehotsprings-perak.com/ppc/index.php?gclid=CNHBo8_msqsCFUF_6wodsGKYfw
Second Update: I got a job that I will be starting on the 3rd of October. I'm nervous, excited. I can't wait!
Third Update: I went to Sarawak for mission. And I really love the people there. And I brought back this from the villages,

Just look at the dots on those LEGS! It's called 'Blessings'

I just want to say although I had all of these bites, I will never forget the ministry and how those people's live touched me. Indeed, it's really different from my past experiences in other mission trip. To tell you now, I really miss the people there. I imagine their faces in my mind whenever I miss them.
Not forgetting, I had awesome Udang GALA when I was there too! :P TEEHEE!

Just crapping, updating.

I think the pain still lies in me. When one can only just be my friend and nothing else. There is nothing much I can do about it because one is either taken already or the other just happens to like someone else. Some call me desperate. Maybe I should start singing desperado. OKAY! I’m not that desperate though but I’m just wondering why I’m still like that for close to 20 years now. Surprised???? It’s going to be 20 years already and not even one single person in my life. Sounds darn pathetic. Oh well, I just don’t want to end up alone and live up to my msn account, all.alone.in.the.day… Most likely now, even at night now. I definitely don’t want to live with 21 cats or dogs. I don’t really like furry animals. Just rambling crap shit at this hour.

I’m suppose to be studying and why is this so? BECAUSE, tomorrow, will be my last paper for my college life. YES, everything will end tomorrow…UNLESS I fail for my Consumer Behaviour or my Practical Training, in which I don’t wish to. Anyway, wish me all the best and keep praying for me. I really want to experience God in a different way, bringing me and my faith to the next level. It would be super duper AWESOME MAWESOME! TEEHEE!

Adios Amigos!

Miss her again

Went back to her tribute blog, written by her husband.
I really miss her. I really really do. I just hope and pray that her husband will be opened up again.
I miss their whole family. It has been two years.
Every once in awhile, I will go to the blog and take a look. Tears just flow down from my eyes. Never failed.
Many things I wish to do for the family but I'm just scared I will be shut off. I want to pay them a visit. I really do. I just want to give them a hug. A hug of comfort. Even I need one from this.

An Update.

It's been a long time since I've blogged. Inspirational thoughts always come when I'm not where my laptop is.
And now, I'm blogging in my office.
Oh well. Guess what, I left 21 hours in the office, 2 and a 1/2 days more to go and I'm back to lifeless college life when I can sleep at 4am and wake up 1pm as I'm only having one class a week which is 4 hours a day.
Next weekend, I'll be away in Penang with Persis to serve at the church there. Persis asked me to accompany her and be a drive partner. When I agreed, she told me to preach in their youth service.
I was like??? SERIOUS BO?? Of course I didn't reply her that. Yet, I took the courage to tell her yes. And now I'm stuck at what to preach. ( I shall not use the 'preach'. Too big a word. I'll use share)
I'm still praying and asking God to reveal what He wants me to share because I know I can't do it on my own. I was and will never be able to do it on my own.
This morning, during devotion, the title was about company. What company are you in?Good or Bad? Are you a good or bad influence? The devotion was great this morning! Actually, every morning devotion is great. I always feel God speaking to me through His word.

Good experience. God feels so real and so near.